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Get up and eat again — the body wants more while studying more O-line tape while on the balcony. Sleep on the balcony and let Monday come

Lena pulls herself up from the balcony floor and her body protests — not pain, just the particular heaviness of a weekend spent resting and eating and recovering, the muscles loose and the joints stiff and the belly full and low. She goes inside and opens the fridge. It's almost empty — the weekend's takeout has stripped it down to condiments and half a carton of milk and a block of cheddar that's going soft at the edges. She grabs the cheddar and the milk and a sleeve of crackers from the pantry and takes them outside and sets them on the balcony ledge and eats standing up, cutting slices of cheddar with a kitchen knife and laying them on crackers and washing them down with milk from the carton. The night air moves across her bare skin. She eats the entire block. Twelve ounces of sharp cheddar and twenty crackers and the milk is gone. Her belly is tight and round and she belches and the sound carries across the balcony and into the night.

She brings her phone outside and props it against the ledge and pulls up the tape. More offensive line play — a different game this time, a college matchup she found on a coaching forum, the quality grainy but the fundamentals clear. She watches a center snap and pull in the same motion, his belly dropping low, his hips pivoting, his feet chopping through the gap. She rewinds it. Watches it again. She takes notes on her phone — *pull angle, hip height, second step placement* — and she mimics the stance against the balcony railing, dropping her hips, feeling her belly shift forward as her center of gravity lowers, feeling the way the weight becomes balance instead of burden. She does it again. The steel barbells glint in the phone's glow. Her thighs burn from the squat and she holds it and studies the screen and the connection between what she sees and what she feels deepens. The body she is building is not decorative. It is functional. Every pound serves a purpose.

She watches another forty minutes of tape. A guard reaches the second level and seals a linebacker — the technique is pure leverage, the guard's belly driving into the defender's chest, the legs churning, the defender disappearing under the mass. Lena pauses the frame and stares at it and thinks about the moment on site when she squared up under a header beam and walked it into position, her belly pressed against the wood, her legs driving, the crew watching. Same principle. Same physics. The body as a tool. The weight as the mechanism. She writes in her notes: *mass is leverage, leverage is power, power is the work.* She sets the phone down and looks at the city below and the thought sits in her chest like a warm stone.

She clears the food wrappers and the milk carton and the knife and takes them inside and comes back with nothing — just herself, naked and 225 pounds and golden and filthy and full, the cheddar sitting heavy in her belly, the tape playing in her mind. She lies down on the balcony concrete and the surface is cool against her back and warm where her body has worn it warm and she arranges herself the way she always does — arms at her sides, belly rising, feet pointed at the sky, the steel in her skin catching the faint glow of the city below. The stars are faint tonight. A haze of cloud at the edges. She can feel Monday out there — the site, the sign, the crew, the third house, the sill plates staged and waiting. She can feel the seven miles waiting after. She can feel the weight still coming, not fast now but steady, the body still softening and expanding in the places it wants to expand, the wish still working because the wish was never about a number. It was about comfort. And the comfort keeps deepening.

Her eyes close. Her breathing slows. The last thing she feels before sleep takes her is the concrete beneath her and the steel above her and the full warm weight of her belly rising and falling and the particular deep satisfaction of a body that ate what it wanted and studied what it loved and is resting exactly where it wants to rest. Monday is coming. She is ready for it. She is ready for all of it.