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Go to Jess for the right shin session and call Samuel again. Find out I always have a baseline level of horniness now, it just increases when I work out and eat. Add it to correlation chart

Tuesday evening Lena drives to Jess's shop on Tenth Street. The right calf is healed — the tribal black sharp from ankle to knee, mirrored from the left — and the shin is next. She drops into the chair and extends the leg and Jess loads the needle and starts. The shin is bone-close work, sharp and bright, the needle dragging through thin skin over tibia and the pain is the kind that makes her jaw lock and her hands grip the chair arms. Two hours. The lines fill in along the shin — thick tribal black, the pattern branching, mirroring the left leg's shin, the ink following the bone the way the calf lines followed the muscle. Jess wipes the last stroke and steps back and the right shin is done from ankle to knee.

"Next session is the kneecap," Jess says. She flexes her hands and rolls her neck.

"After that, the thigh. Three more sessions minimum. Maybe four."

Lena drives home with the right shin swollen and sore and the fresh ink under the wrap. The left leg is fully healed — ankle to hip, one unbroken piece. The right leg is ankle to knee now. Halfway. She lies on the balcony and the night is warm and the concrete is warm and the barbell is in the rack and she picks up the phone and scrolls to Samuel's number and calls.

The phone rings twice. He picks up.

"Dad."

"Lena."

The voice is the same — rough, careful, the weight of a man holding a phone the way he holds everything. But he picked up on the second ring. Last Saturday it was four. She hears the difference and doesn't name it.

"The bid went out today. County contract. Sixty units. I found three problems in the plans and fixed them. Saved the company two hundred thousand dollars in underbidding. Jensen said I paid for my own salary for three years."

Silence. But not the old silence — not the silence of a man who won't speak. The silence of a man who is listening and thinking. She waits.

"Your grandfather would have found those problems too," Samuel says. "He couldn't read blueprints. But he could look at a wall and tell you what was wrong with it. Same thing. Different tool."

Lena's hand rests on her belly — three hundred and thirty-five pounds of soft and solid, the belly button piercing catching the balcony light. She doesn't speak. She lets the silence hold because Samuel Park is talking about his father and Samuel Park has never talked about his father and if she speaks he'll stop.

"He was a mason. Did you know that? Stone. Not steel. He built walls with his hands and his back and he never once sat in an office. I thought I was doing better. Cleaner work. Better money. But I watch you and I — "

He stops. The silence is heavy and full and she hears the chair creak and she knows he's leaning forward. She knows the weight of him.

"The work is good, Lena. You know that."

"I know, Dad."

He hangs up the same way — not rude, not abrupt. The way a man hangs up when he has said enough. She lies on the balcony and the phone is warm and the right shin is throbbing and the call lasted six minutes and it was the longest conversation she has had with her father in ten years and it is the second one this week.

Later she lies on the concrete and the night presses down and the body is warm and heavy and the horniness is there. Not the sharp spike of post-run or post-press — not the river-path urgency, not the balcony-after-heavy-sets urgency. A baseline. Low and constant and warm, the way body heat is warm, the way blood flow is warm. It's just there. She notices it the way she notices her breathing or her heartbeat — always present, always running, the body humming at a frequency she didn't have at 167 or 200 or 225. At those weights it came and went. At 335 it lives in her. The workouts spike it. The food spikes it. The runs spike it. But the baseline — the floor — is new.

She picks up the phone and opens the spreadsheet and adds a column: *Baseline Libido — Constant*. The performance tab and the libido tab are now three columns each — weight, spike frequency, baseline presence. The correlation is clean. Weight goes up. Performance goes up. Spike frequency goes up. And now the floor rises with it. The body is a system that scales in every direction and the baseline is part of the system and the system is growing and she is comfortable. She is so deeply, completely comfortable.