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Tell her i'm going but i'm going naked. No cleaning up either
Diane's coffee cup pauses halfway to her mouth. The pause lasts two seconds — long enough for Lena to see it, long enough for Diane to decide what to do with it. She sets the cup down and her fingers stay wrapped around it and she doesn't look away. Lena watches her face and waits for the flinch that doesn't come. The coffee shop hums around them — the espresso machine, the two women at the corner table whispering, the barista calling a name nobody claims — and Diane sits across from her and doesn't flinch.
"I'm going," Lena says. "But I'm going naked. I'm not cleaning up. Not showering, not brushing my teeth, not anything. This is what I'll look like when I sit down next to you. This is what I'll smell like." She says it flat, the way she says everything now — not as a dare, not as a negotiation, but as a fact she's placing on the table between them like the coffee cup. Her belly presses against the table edge. The chair creaks when she shifts.
Diane is quiet for five full seconds. Her thumb moves against the ceramic cup in a slow circle. The fluorescent light catches the grease on Lena's skin, the crumbs in the fold beneath her breasts, the stubble on her jaw. The smell — vodka and weed and sweat and nine days of unwashed body — reaches across the table in the warm air. Diane breathes it. She doesn't lean back. She doesn't wrinkle her nose. She looks at Lena the way she's always looked at her — directly, the way you look at something you've already decided not to look away from.
"Okay," Diane says. "Saturday. Seven o'clock. You come as you are. I'll meet you at the entrance." She picks up her coffee and drinks and sets it down and adds, "I'll get there early. I'll get seats in the back row. You won't have to walk past anyone in the dark." She says it without ceremony — practical, precise, the same voice she uses to delegate quarterly reviews. But her eyes stay on Lena's face the whole time and they don't move to her body and they don't move away. The offer sits between them, settled now: a movie theater, Saturday, the back row, the dark, and Lena the way Lena is.
Lena picks up her coffee and drinks and it's gone cold and she drinks it anyway. The two women at the corner table have stopped whispering and are looking at her — at her body, her bare breasts resting on her belly, her unwashed hair, her yellow teeth — and Lena doesn't turn. She looks at Diane and says, "You're going to sit next to me in a movie theater while I'm naked and covered in nine days of mess." Diane says, "I've sat next to you in a coffee shop while you're naked and covered in nine days of mess. A movie theater is darker." And something shifts between them — not warmth, not tension, but a shared recognition that this is happening, that neither of them is going to stop it, that the Charleswood on Saturday at seven will hold both of them in the dark and whatever comes with them.