The fur coat's first march

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Reply 'I'm coming' in the group chat. get up and see your cloest. you see boots you never seen before, you see a really skinny black jeans and a black leather you havent wore since halloween 6 years ago. you dont how there got here, but you take the items out and put them on. you want to put your jewlery and makeup on, but choose not to today as you look in the mirror and you dressed like them.

Your thumbs answer before your feet do. 'I'm coming.' You hit send and watch the little red checkmark appear, and the chat keeps scrolling on above it like a river that doesn't pause for you.

Then you're up, cold floor through your socks, and you pull the closet door wide. The clothes you laid out last night hang exactly where you left them — dark jeans, black sweater, the flat boots — and beside them, in the back corner where the light doesn't quite reach, things you don't remember owning. A pair of skinny black jeans so narrow they look like they'd need a shoehorn. And behind them, on a hanger you never use, a black leather jacket.

You take it down. The leather is stiff with age, cold as the room, and when you shake it out there's a faint smell of dust and something older underneath, like Halloween. Six years ago, minimum. Maybe a costume-shop thing, maybe something you bought in a mood and buried. You don't know how it got here. You take it off the hanger anyway.

The skinny jeans go on first — harder than they should be, working them up your calves — then the sweater, then the jacket, heavier than you remembered. You trade the flat boots for the ones from the closet floor, the pair with the buckles you'd forgotten about. In the mirror the silhouette stops you: black on black on black, no fur, no gold, nothing that glitters.

Your hand goes to the jewelry dish on the dresser on pure reflex — the small gold hoops, the thin chain, the rings that live on your fingers most mornings. Your other hand is already holding the makeup bag. You look at the mirror, and the girl in it looks back in black leather and a bare face, hair loose and plain, and you put the dish down. You put the bag down. You dressed like them. Not one of them yet, but dressed like them, and the mirror holds the question of whether that's armor or a uniform.

Downstairs, the chat buzzes again. Cleo, 6:04 a.m.: 'Boots on, comrades. courthouse in under an hour.' Somewhere on campus, fifteen people are already moving toward the same steps. You pick up your keys.