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Put the gloves back on in front of him

You move to the table where the gloves lie, their kid leather still holding the warmth of your skin, the shape of your patience. Ronan watches you pick them up, his face tightening with something that might be grief or might be recognition. You do not hurry. You work your left hand into the glove slowly, feeling the leather settle over your knuckles, the seam releasing across the back of your hand as if it has been waiting for your return. The right follows, the button fastening beneath your thumb with a small sound like completion.

"You don't understand," Ronan says, but his voice has lost its certainty. "She regretted it. At the end, she regretted everything."

"She regretted stopping," you correct, and the words come from somewhere deeper than your own hesitation, from the gloves themselves perhaps, or from the letter beneath your pillow, or from Vivienne's photograph watching with her folded hands. You raise your gloved hands before your face and flex them, feeling the leather move with you, no longer foreign but familiar, no longer teaching but taught.

The blouse settles differently now with the gloves beneath its cuffs, the silk sleeves filling properly for the first time, the gap at your chest narrowing as your shoulders find their new alignment. Ronan sees this. You watch him see it, his eyes moving from your hands to your posture to the wardrobe behind you, the slip still waiting.

"She wanted me to have this," you say. "She left the letters. She left the map." You turn to face the ivory slip, feeling its gravity more strongly now, understanding what Vivienne could not face: not the transformation, but its completion, the final surrender of who she had been.

"I'm not her, Ronan."

Your father stands in his mother's fear and his own witness, and for a moment neither of you speaks. The gloves hold your hands steady. The wardrobe holds its patience. You wait for him to choose what he will do with what he knows.