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Stop and assess how the impacts feel on my knuckles and joints. I make the corrections as my body tells me. Same for the kicks. Afterwards, do the rest of my workout, eat, masturbate and pass out on the floor

Lena stops after the fourth combination and looks at her hands. The knuckles on her right are red where they met the vinyl, the skin flushed with blood, and the impact has traveled into the bones of her hand and up through the carpal tunnel and into her wrist in a way that air never transmitted. She flexes her fingers. The joints ache, not badly, not with the sharpness of injury, but with the dull weight of a structure encountering resistance for the first time. The wrist feels it too. The angle was wrong on the third cross — she can feel it in the way the tendons on the back of her hand pull when she rotates her forearm, a slight asymmetry that means the force was distributed across the joint instead of through it. She adjusts. The fist tightens. The wrist straightens. The alignment from knuckle to elbow becomes a single line and she throws the cross again and this time the impact is different — cleaner, the force traveling straight through the bones without sideways pressure, and the ache in the wrist does not return.

The bag tells her things the air could not. A jab that lands late has no power because the arm is already extending past the point of peak force, and the bag barely moves, and she can see it barely move, and the correction is immediate — release earlier, let the shoulder drive the fist, let the hip carry the shoulder. She throws it again and the bag snaps back and the vinyl compresses under her knuckle and the sound is a flat crack instead of a dull thud and she knows the difference because the bag has shown her. Her elbows are next. The left elbow hyperextends slightly on a hook and she feels it in the ligament immediately, a warning that is not pain but is the precursor to pain, and she pulls the punch shorter. The hook becomes tighter. The rotation comes from the core instead of the arm and the bag rocks sideways instead of swinging and the elbow is safe.

The kicks are a different education. She throws a roundhouse and her shin connects with the bag and the impact is a shock that runs up the bone like a tuning fork and she stops and breathes and the shin throbs with a heat that is not the warmth. The bone is not ready. The muscle is ready, the hips are ready, the rotation is powerful and the fat on her thigh shifts with the torque and the muscle beneath drives the kick, but the shin is a bone and bones need time to adapt to impact. She throws the kick lighter. Then lighter again. The third time is correct — enough force to move the bag, not enough to hurt the bone, and her body files the information. The kick will get harder as the shin adapts. The shin will adapt because she will ask it to. She throws ten more at that weight and the last three feel different — the bone is settling into the impact, the periosteum accepting the pressure, and she knows this is a process that will take weeks and she has weeks.

She moves through the rest of the workout and the bag has changed everything. The push-ups are the same but her knuckles are warm from the impact and her wrists are tracking the corrections she made on the bag and the form is tighter. The squats are the same but her hips are looser from the kicking rotation and the depth is deeper. The boxing is different — she finishes with three rounds on the bag, each one harder than the last, and the bag swings and creaks and the base shifts on the carpet and she hits it until her shoulders burn and her knuckles are dark red and the sweat is running down her belly and her thighs and dripping onto the carpet. She collapses onto the floor. The delivery containers are open — five meals tonight, arranged on the carpet beside the legal pad — and she eats with her hands because the plastic forks are across the room and her body is too tired to stand. The curry is cold and the rice is stiff and she does not care. Her hands are in the food and the food is in her mouth and the warmth pulses with each swallow and her body is 160 pounds of muscle and fat that just hit something for the first time and the hitting was correct.

Her hand moves down. The arousal is not separate from the workout — it is the tail end of the workout, the final expenditure of energy, and her fingers find the place between her legs and the body hair is thick and her thighs are slick with sweat and the orgasm comes fast and hard and she arches on the floor with one hand in a container of noodles and the other between her legs and the warmth surges and the thought is there and it is not a word. It is a feeling. The feeling is completion. She lies on the floor with her belly rising and falling and the sweat cooling on her skin and the delivery containers around her and the punching bag standing in the center of the room, still swinging slightly from the last combination, and the swinging slows and stops and the apartment is quiet and she is asleep.